There's only 1 Sarah Palin. Me, her, and that guy from school.

Hello everyone, and happy halloween. 

For halloween I was going to be a bride or something. I had a long white dress... so I thought I would just wear that. But then my hair started not working right so I got frustrated. As I stood in front of my wardrobe, I came up with a brilliant idea. I pinned my hair up, dressed in my suit, got an old pair of glasses, and put on tons of makeup. I bet you've guessed it - Sarah Palin. 

Throughout the night I got quite a few scared looks.. I actually looked like her a bit. Anyways... I wrote up an entry in here that was long, thoughtful, and insightful, but my computer crashed before it was saved. 

So this is all ya'll get. 

ciao.

Life is a Long Lesson in Humility

Bueno everyone. 

I think blogs are somewhat overrated - yes? Hm. I'm thinking that perhaps I will get a blog elsewhere such as... well... livejournal.com or something. Then again probably not. Takes time to set up these things. So I'll just stick with it for now. 

I've always been not that great at keeping a journal consistently, so my posts will be varied alot. Oh well. Nobody reads this anyway.

Felt sick today so I'm not doing anything. Which reminds me of halloween. I don't know what I'm going to be yet... I was thinking perhaps the corpse bride? Or maybe Elizabeth Swan. That's her name right? My head isn't so great today... I'm forgetting things. If I got it wrong and you have no idea what I'm talking about, it's that girl from pirates of the caribbean. But this year I think it would be fun to be dead. I mean, white face powder, blue eyeshadow... all that fun stuff. I've never actually been anything scary for halloween ever. I suppose there's nothing wrong with that. I'm always a disney character or something. Minnie Mouse 2 years in a row. Belle from Beauty and the Beast. Raggedy Ann. Always a cartoon character for some strange reason. Last year I was a fairy. I had a halo and wings. 

Enough about halloween. I started school roughly 2 months ago. Been struggling with that a bit lately... It's not that I'm not doing the work, it's just that no matter how hard I work on something, it's always wrong. I guess this is where my low self-esteem takes a play - always telling myself that I'm not good enough. This thought can bring one down considerably. So yeah... been feeling a bit down in the dumps recently. Numerous factors contribute to this, not just school. 

Being single has to do with it too, I guess. I have a bad tendency to depend on guys to bring up my self esteem. Which usually doesn't work, and has the opposite effect. At this point, I don't really care that much anymore... My standards are pretty high, and I've been tempted to just settle with what I got many times. I know that some of these guys are not necessarily good for me, and are bringing me down more than building me up. I found that depending on these people doesn't do much good for me. Sometimes it's just like... I can't help it? I'm not sure. I just wish there was one person out there who I could depend on, and wouldn't use me as someone to step on so they could get higher. I've found that being used like this is in the least, inconvenient. 

I am soon to be a big sister. 

Nah, my mom's not pregnant - we are adopting 3 kids from Mexico. Which scares me as much as it surprises me. When I was younger, I would think of how cool it would be if I wasn't the youngest - get some poor kid to do my bidding. Now my thinking has turned more to anticipating moving out in a couple more years. Don't get me wrong - I love my family. It's just that when I'm at home, I need a relaxing atmosphere so I can calm down. Funny how personality changes through means of puberty. I used to be an extravert all the way. Now, the world tires me easily, and I need to rest and recuperate. I need to rebuild my stamina by myself. The last thing I need is cause for panic attacks at home. 

Medical reasons mess with my mind as well. Frequent panic attacks control my emotions and adrenaline. These panic attacks force me into a state of complete terror and the un-ability to focus. Following the terror symptom, the un-ability to focus sends my thoughts into all directions. I think about my life, and my friends and their lives, and how they compare. 

There is more contrast than compare, usually.

Then of course the teacher calls on me at this moment of realization and I am unable to continue the train of thought I had previously experienced until, perhaps by accident, I stumble upon it again weeks later. Thoughts like these are not unlike dreams in this instance. The second your brain is stolen away, all that thought process vanishes into thin air, and is lost when you try to find it again. 

heyaaa

Hello all. 

Well, I haven't posted in a while, but as for all the pictures below, that was for a photography class I took. Those were all the assignments. So, school's started. That's keeping me busy. I also got into the play, It's a Wonderful Life. So my time is filled. I have a video blog however, on youtube: http://www.youtube.com/user/maloryangeline

It's in progress. :P

Diptych assignment

so I guess I'm going to try to just post some photos for right now. :) 

the big bad ice cream man

Today was a good day. I'm sitting here eating cheese and rye bread. mmm. I didn't feel so well yesterday. But today made up for it I think. I made fudge brownies, :). My mom reminded me today about my phobia of the ice cream truck when I was little. I never wanted to go get ice cream from the ice cream man. My mom would ask "malory, do you want to chase down the truck to get some icecream?" and I always responded, "no! He's scary!" I was always scared of the man who ran any of the ice cream trucks. :) good memories. 

I might go to college park for my junior and senior years of high school. But that's far in the future. I need to worry about my sophmore year first.  I've discovered that a majority of my friends are older than me. I have a few younger than me, but even taken litterally: the friends my age are all older than me. I'm the youngest one in my 9th grade class this past year. Weird. Well. I'm tired. 

goodnight~

Malory

What can I say. Emo kids love me.

Music: Hellogoodbye. I think they might be becoming my favorite band. hm. 

Place: uhm... computer

Feelings: in a sing along kind of mood with a delusional sleepiness mixed in.

I suppose it's time for a new post. 

Laundry was accomplished today. Yay now I have clothes. See, when I had money, my system was that when I ran out of clothes, just go buy some more... but now, I'm poor. So that doesn't work so well... I actually have to work at maneuvering my clothes from one machine to the next. :S 

I'm hungry. I cooked some pizza earlier, but it was gooey. So now I recooked it, and it's overdone and burnt. :( but I'm eating it anyway. I had a good day today. But I was tired because last night I stayed up until 1:30/2:00, and fell asleep, then woke up at 5:00, and didn't go back to sleep until 7:00. Then I slept until 9:00. I'm on the phone with my friend bethany, and she just made a really really loud shrieking noise over a spider the size of her little finger, lol. I'm deaf in one ear now. And hooray she is sleeping over at my house tomorrow... woot. She is so hyper. It's great. I've managed to rack up huge fines on my library card... eh... I have no money to give to the place of books. :( Now I'm just rambling about random things. As long as I'm rambling, I will say that I am now accepted into the group of emo kids at my church. This comes as a surprise to me, because I wear bright colors alot of the time... but they seem to like me since I saved them from this little girl that beats people up (no joke) a.k.a. karin's little sister. :P haha. It's scary. Alright well it's almost tomorrow now, so I should get to bed and sleep. Because tomorrow is another day. Whoa... I have nothing to do tomorrow. yay :) . Maybe I'll read. 

uhhmmm ok g'night

~Malory

missing school

I miss school. :.(

I want to go back to school. 

That may sound dumb. 

*sigh*

I'm going to dvc but that doesn't count. Wow. Only 3 weeks out of school and I'm already missing it...

pictures site

so yeah. Go here for pictures. I'm tired of blogspot.com being dumb.

http://s292.photobucket.com/albums/mm24/malory55

ooh yeah. Guest password: lolmc3

So today....

I'm listening to bohemian rhapsody by queen. I have to say that it is now one of my favorite songs ever. One of my friends says it saved her life. Figuratively speaking. I am proud that I introduced her to it. 

Anyways. Yes, it's been somewhat depressing these past few days because I haven't been able to talk to some of my friends. But today, I am cured of depression. I went to youth group, and one of my friends like, rose from the dead. Not really. She just snapped out of being sick really fast. So that made me happy. Then I went frolicking with her in a field, we ate chips, laid in the grass, spent a while getting all the grass out of our hair, and we swung (swang?) on some swings, and picked flowers and that cheered me up. And also one of my friends who lives in England called me, and I hadn't talked to him in a really long time...Then I might go roller skating tomorrow which is exciting.

Ok, here's the thing about roller/ice skating with me. I love it, I think it's so much fun. With roller skating, I can usually get the hang of it as long as I can hang onto someone. With ice skating.... I'm sorry, is there something wrong with me that I can't balance on two thin pieces of metal on a slippery substance called ice? I mean, I love going ice skating. Especially in december, when they have the lights, and it's all magical.... But it kindof spoils it, that I keep falling... It's bizarre isn't it? That I'm like the only one of my friends that doesn't have a great sense of balance. Psh. 

Lets see.... what else can I rant about.... No one's probably ever going to look at this. I'm just typing to no one. :P Oh well. It's fun anyways...

So youth group was tonight, and our pastor literally brought in a pig tongue and two snakes. Ok, his message was on like the fire of the tongue, and how the tongue can only be tamed by God. So he drenched the tongue in hand sanitizer, and set it on fire. It was gross, haha. Unfortunately, I didn't take a picture of it. But then he brought out the snakes. I think snakes are cool and all, but I wouldn't touch one. I held one once, and I might again sometime. I'm not as grossed out about them as I used to be, but I still distance myself from them.

I feel like I should be talking of something with real significance. 

What do you guys think of the elections? Personally, I'm really scared. I don't know what's going to happen... You know how they say that history repeats itself? Well, I've been thinking about how they executed christians back in the day. And that has me worried.. I just hope everything stays the way it is. I've also been reading in revelations lately, and how the world is going to end. And I know it's all true, but I don't want to see it in my lifetime. I want to die peacefully of old age in my bed. I would rather not be tortured to death if at all possible. 

anyways.... I think I will go now. Enough ranting for one day. 

oh, I'm going to mexico in august. I'm so excited about it... I'll take tons of pictures and post them on here. I a tad bit worried though, cause it gets up to like, 120 - 140 degrees on a normal summer day down there. ahh..... Sunscreen is a good thing to have handy. 

alright I should go now.....

ohoh go here if you want to see some recent photographs taken by myself:

http://s292.photobucket.com/albums/mm24/malory55/

I think it will work. Let me know if it doesn't. 

Alright I'm really gone now.

~Malory

chewy

Will Ferrel as George Bush

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EkqrI3IibYI

this is my favorite. :)

So. This is my blog.

Place: at home...

Music: metro station

I feel: tired but somewhat dillusional

So. This is my blog. I guess I should use it. 

I've been wanting to get a blog for my photography and journalism purposes. As far as photography, this just a display. I want to be a journalist, so this is practice. :) 

I'll also add a few things here and there about different events that happen to me. 

Like the time I got trapped in a bathroom. Or the time I stoned a squirrel. 

It's fun to be me.